Let go and let God!

Well it has been a couple of days since my last blog, I am not getting slack I promise!


God has been doing a work in me these past few days. I am learning all about patience, and waiting on God's timing. As I have mentioned before, there are some decisions that will change my life no matter what the choice is. My faith has been fully placed in God, that He will provide, because He will. My God never leaves me and He will always take care of me. He is my Heavenly Father who adores me and wants an intimate relationship with me that is beyond understanding. 


I find myself constantly talking to God throughout the day, just asking Him to lead me and to continue to remind me that He is in control of my life. 


After truly following Christ for 6 years, I have come to understand that being a believer of Jesus Christ doesn't make life "easier". It brings its own challenges. The difference in challenges as a believer and challenges that are of the world, I have Jesus, the One who will guide me when I am faced with these struggles. I believe each of us has our own weakness, something that the devil tries to use against us. I am quite aware of my weakness, the Lord has pointed it out to me in various ways within the past year. I have a problem with putting up walls between me and other people. When something happens that doesn't go the way I want it to go, or the way I think it should go, I have a hard time letting that go. It honestly takes true happiness away from me because I am suddenly overcome with anger and resentment. 


College has brought new experiences and a whole new world of independence. Independence of self, money, studies, and most of all my relationship with Christ. I have always thought I "understood" what the Bible says and what I was suppose to do as a Christian. But being put in completely different situations in this new chapter of my life, made me lean towards Christ more than I ever have before. It has brought new struggles and new challenges. Some good and some bad. I have been put in situations where it is very easy for me to just throw that wall up and just walk away from whatever didn't go my way. That is the biggest lesson God has shown me. It isn't suppose to go my way. My purpose on earth is to be used by God. To show His love, His mercy, and to share what He has done for us all. 


I am learning to just be happy. To not let little things get to me, and get in the way of being used by God. When I let the devil use circumstances to get to my heart and emotions, I am hindering God from doing what He wants and what He has planned to do with me. After understanding that, I am willing to really let go and let God do His will. 


This morning I read a verse that screamed out loud to me. It is 1 Peter 3:4 and it says, "You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God." 


This is the spirit I pray to have. I have so many godly women in my life that are radiant with joy and gentleness. I pray I will have that. I want to give off the love and compassion of the Lord, that will draw in unbelievers to ask questions. 


This is what God is doing in me right now and I am so thankful because this is something I have struggled with my whole life. Praise God for having new mercies every morning, and for the Word of God being alive! It is so amazing to be able to read the same verse over and over again and still learning something new every time.


God is so Good!